Inadequacy- learn to live with it

Inadequacy- it's nothing new. Hasn't everyone felt it once? No? Am I the only one? Am I the only person who feels this gnawing urgency to prove myself? Failing which I'm reduced to tears. Tears aren't something I shed easily, right?

What do you know? I've shed tears so many hours on end - wasted my life pining away. And that goes to prove either of two things. I'm not doing it right or it's not worth it. The choice is really up to me. I need to draw that line and decide which of the two I'm willing to accept. After all, it's my life.

Money rules?

I’m not one of those girls. The kind that needs lots of money to be happy. Well, there’s another myth down the drain. I have money and I’m living it up. So much that I’m pretty much broke these days.

And that is where everyone else comes into the picture. No matter how heartless that sounds, money adds a certain respect. And borrowing from someone who doesn’t need it, what’s the problem with that? Unfortunately, finding that person’s hard.

Everyone needs money.

A single tear

It wasn’t supposed to be easy. And, sadly, heartbreakingly, it was. A single tear shed and the world continued. There were no earth shattering differences, people didn’t care. And I’d berated them for that... in the past. Now I was one of them.

Why couldn’t I cry? I needed to – release the pain. That’s what they all said, ‘A good cry will make you feel better.’ How do I explain to them…I’m fine? I’m not in shock, I’m not in denial. I see the truth for what it is and I’m surviving. I’m okay.

I don’t need help to get through this crisis…simply because, there is none. Welcome to life.