Four words

Four words you shouldn't think of - what might have been? The doubts and anxieties that spring up can colour your life miserable...

I'm having doubts now- based on nothing other than a few casually thrown words. Funny how I can't pay attention to the most dire warnings but words meant to be taken lightly...I analyse every aspect.

And it's driving me nuts...But I'm gonna not go into it. I am happy! Yeah right. If I keep telling myself that, maybe I'll forget.

And then I'll need the services of a shrink!

Lost in the unknown

It's the fear of the unknown that's terrifying. And I'm terrified now. I want this endless wait to be over. To just know and stop agonizing. Unfortunately, it doesn't end there.

What if the truth isn't what I'm hoping it to be? What if the worst comes true. And here's where I get muddled...

What is the worst? I'm not sure anymore if I know just what I want. Never thought that this would be me. A me who can't decide what I want at this point in life. It should be easy. A straight cut answer.

And i'm so hopelessly lost...